New Beginning

“This is the day for a new beginning, a time to change for the better. The old parts of me will be hidden and new parts will transcend.”

            I never thought that this day will come for me to choose whether to continue or not. Honestly, I’m not really good with any kinds of goodbyes. It might be a person, a place or an animal. Hehehe, that’s so me. However, I need to change this kind of character for I definitely know that this will be the hindrance to move forward. Here we are again, moving forward.

            For me, moving forward is really a hard part. Even though I know that this will be for the best. While being on this process, lots of memories have been reminisced and also, compunctions. “Why should I regret this part?” a question which always taunted me even in my dreams. Whew!!! Now, little by little, I had come up with few reasons such as; being hasty, being impulsive, being immature, being childish and so on.

            All of the reasons that I think are all against me. Whew!!! Then maybe this is my entire fault. But wait, I still love myself and I believe this is not my entire fault. Hahaha, I just acted that way because it’s my defense mechanism from totally falling from the cliff. Everyone has defense mechanism whenever they know they are in harm’s way. Right?

            Back to compunction, “Do I really regret this part?” For weeks of pondering and berating myself, I realized I should not regret this for I have learned something which will help me in the future. A lesson which will surely be valuable for the coming events in my life and that is in my New Beginning.

“Be thankful for the things you have once held and let it mold you for the better. They can mold you for the worse or for the better. However, it is really up to you on how you perceive it. So, look forward and be positive.”