WILL THERE BE FOREVER?

She's known him since time and memorial.

 She met him when she was just a striving college student who wanted to get something out from life. They became friends.  She admired him for being so kind, honest, caring and a gentleman. Who wouldn't fall for him. He treated her well.  They talk about lots of things, from music, life, love and problems. He shared his life as he was enable to let her trust him. His life as a soldier brought him to different places.

She remembered vividly the first time she met him online, he's in Japan, he has a girlfriend back then, he would talk about her.  His love for her.  She would just listen. It was something...She would listen how he sings praises to the one he loves love  but deep inside she's feeling something..wishing that she be that woman he loves.

Slowly it made her sad. Until one time she let everything out. She told him she's slowly affected by him around.  Nonetheless, he stayed.  

War in Kuwait brought him to Middle East.  They would still talk to each other. There was never a hindrance. Time was never been a barrier. He would offer her things but she declines.  Then for some reasons they lost touch. She continued her career, he got married. Not to the woman whom they used to talk about but  then again had his divorce.

After four years they met again online..things were different...he wanted him for himself, talks about life with her, even showed her the house he wanted to share with her but then she can no longer be with him. she's struggling to make her family be okey..

The same feelings were there. it never changed. She enjoyed his company. They would talk about her problems, he would cheer him up.  She learned that he is no longer a military man. It made her happy seeing him with his children and grand children. He also has his own career as a supervisor in a steel company. She opened up her feelings of which he reciprocated. Unfortunately, it can never be for real.

He hasnt change...his looks , his attitude...he still backs her up...they lost touch again ......after eight years of friendship, they meet up again...they havent seen each other personally but it was like more than what they asked for. He helped her in times she's in trouble.  He wanted to see her in person,  offering lots of things for her.Being in a state of relationship that she has,  she cant move the way it should be..But he never left. This time he promised to support her to reached her dreams which he did for real, yet she disappointed him.

She didnt succumb to what he liked..for her to finish her ultimate dream. He never trusted her anymore. That was the start of the change.  He doesnt know the things she's gping through for she kept silent.  He thought everything is fine.  All she wanted was to be with him, to be in his care, to show him that she cared for him too.

One day they got the chance to talk again..This time shes free..unfortunately he isnt.....she wanted him so much for herself but she cant throw herself at him.  Ten years in the making....ten years of ups and down...he is the only positive influence in her life...but now he has someone...ten years and still they havent met halfway.

Would they be given the chance as what they promised  each other?

Does he know how she feels?.........

she will never know..........but then ten years......going to eleven

still they are friends.......

Maybe one day.....they will meet halfway....and that oneday will make a difference....

She will wait for him....even if it takes forever....